Anti Meatloaf

Off the exercise wagon, off the spiritual study wagon.  Still eating right. 2 out of 3, Hmmm that's kind of bad.

Actually I know I am judging myself harshly.  But this is how it always starts.  There is a really good (sort of) reason.  I had some work that really needed to get done.  So I didn't study this AM and didn't exercise either.

I did pick up snacks for work (it was my turn to do so) and have thus far declined to consume any of the fattening treats I purchased for my colleagues.

Not so bad right,  Didn't exercise this morning, well, OK.  Didn't study much this week (umm, well that's troubling but not necessarily an indication of doom.) However, this is how it alwaysstarts.  Some reasonable reason, a "normal" excuse.   And boom, I stop studying, stop exercising, before long stop going to church and as surely as night follows day, I start eating like a pig again.

Now at this point, I have to figure out what to do so that that pattern doesn't repeat.  Pray?  Well that's an excellent idea.  Take a memo to do so as soon as I finish this post (we'll see right?)

Schedule -  OK fine been there, done that.

Ask for help?  -- Ask who?  No one cares except those who can't help.  I have no friends.

Ask the Elders?  Really!!?? and have them stare back at me and say "What do you want us to do?"  I don't mean to make fun of them.  (Actually I suppose I do although i have to acknowledge in the same breath that they are probably doing their very best to help.)

Hmmm, prayer sounds best.  I'll let you know, gentle reader (if there are any such,) how that works out.  It occurs to me that there was just recently an article on prayer I studied for this week's services on prayer.  Maybe I can think of some pointers from that as I finish the studying.

So I have prayed a couple of times, but, of course no answer can reasonably be expected in an abundantly apparent fashion.  It has to be sustained and over a long period of time before you slowly start noticing some improvement in "things" in general.  Most people, including me, really want a more immediate feedback.  But there is simply enough evidence that I can read about that it works.  I just need to swallow my skepticism and make do like the bible, and hence God tells me to do.
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On another note I am supposed to go over to my Ex's place to help her hang a shelf tonight.  She is DF so I shouldn't do it, but, as I said, I have no friends and could use a little human interaction (see earlier post on the subject.)

So I went over hung the shelf and talked another hour, kissed and left.  And that's my allotment for HI (Human Interaction) for another month or so.