I like the job I have and I hate it at the same time. I really need to make a change. I need to get out of my comfort zone and deal with these issues as quickly and effectively as possible. Not doing so will likely result in my death. Not that many would notice, probably on ay a very few. And all because of what, a pretty face (and gorgeous body?)
Of course it is not worth it, but as I am so starved for attention from an intelligent adult, I feel almost forced to give in.
Whatever drivel from above is at least a month old. The issues are still raw and throbbing but more like a dull pain that has been around for a long time.
I have another appointment with my new best friend: Linda Hunt (not her real name, duh.) It is so expensive I am thinking about just cancelling and using the money to buy something I really need like a record player. Honestly the only way I could see that I would meet with her again if she is OK with letting me take some photos of her. That would be really fun.
Hang on, did I loose you? OK let me catch you up, my best friend and confidant is a paid companion. Yes the same as the escorts you can see implying lascivious services for hire, though they specifically only offer time and companionship and what happens during that time is at the discretion of the client and provider. That is the only way I seem to be able to have friends. Actually it works OK. The amount of time I spend with this person is hard limited because of the extreme cost involved. I just don't want the services that would get me in trouble spiritually as much as I want the intellectual interaction (when the consequences of any such interaction is included in the analysis.)
However it is wholly unsatisfying because the cost limits the availability so harshly that I am still left in severe want. This isn't really very unusual, just part of the dull throbbing in my life. Occasionally the pain takes on an acute characteristic, which leads to making stupid decisions.
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