It's July, halfway through 2023 and in my 5th year of being kicked out of my religion.  I started studying regularly about a month or so ago.  I always thought I would stop after a few days but I prayed that I would keep going and well, what do you know, I still am a month later.  I know I need to do more studying to get good at my religion.  However, I don't want to add too much, really, I don't want to add anything to the process for fear that I stop doing any studying at all.

I do find that studying has impacted some of the choices I am making in the rest of my life.  I guess that is what is supposed to happen, but it is interesting to see it play out in real life.  I am looking at porn less almost rarely.  Even during long periods of inactivity when I would normally turn to various salacious web sites, near porn is what I would call some of them.  I am doing that only occasionally now, like a couple of times a month.   

What has stuck with me is that I am still totally without motivation.  I sit around the house with so many things that need doing, but I can only seem to watch TV, read books and just mope around.  

I have come to realize that I need to purge massive amounts of junk from my house.  My files, my precious files, they are being purged strongly.  I have thrown away at least a third of them.  I'm not finished yet.  There is so much more that I want to get rid of.  And old stuff that I used to save just because, well you never know when I might need this again.  That old stuff is going out now.  I regularly fill three large trash cans each week of stuff to be taken away.  I would do more If the trash service here picked up twice a week.