I am pushing to get back into my religion recently. I decided to wait until September, but for some reason I submitted a plea for return a few days ago. It seems to take a week or so for the deacons to respond so I'm not holding my breath.
A wave of nostalgia for the past wanton lifestyle came over me this AM. I looked at some advertisements for escort services. There is a pattern I had when using them. I would look at the aggregation site and then open in new window the businesses in which I was particularly interested. There are about 3 such aggregation sites I used regularly. I visited all three this AM. I went through the usual procedure and identified two candidates in particular that roused the most interest. In the end I closed them all down without any attempt to contact the proprietors.
If I am successful in getting back into the organization, this weakness will stay with me until the end of my imperfect life. I will have to learn to deal with it better than I did this morning.
Work is just as frustrating as always. I am trying to just let everything go and not worry about the disappointments there. It simply isn't worth the mental effort.
I have started working through a number of courses on Linked-In Learning. I am happy to be doing this. Again, I am afraid that it won't last very long.
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