Now, again, I have fallen into the same pit that the Israelites did so regularly. Now that the threat has passed, I went back to missing meetings at the KHall. I attend remotely only about half of the time. I recreated my profile on an SD/SB site, and I started perusing escort sites. I tried to contact a half dozen or so. Two responded with rates and availability. I am still not quite ready to pull the trigger. I found that asking if they offer Greek service tends to end the conversation. The price remains sky high.
Someone who is white and really very pretty is around 700 - 800 USD/hr. Someone slim and pretty enough is about 600. I found a new site, skipthefakes.com. The women there are very cheap, relatively speaking. They are 200 - 400 USD per hour. One of the women there had reviews on TER. Terrible reviews. I don't have much experience at the lower levels in this service market; however, the more general rule seems to apply:
"You don't get any more than what you pay for."
And, of course, the corollary:
"If you aren't careful, you won't even get that."
I have lost so much vacation time. Now that I can work again, I worked thoroughly through the 2 weeks of vacation that I had around Thanksgiving. I am also spending a few hours working around the Xmas holidays.
All in all, it isn't unfair. I spent so much time trying and failing to work that working over my vacation feels like giving back a little of what I missed in the months prior.
Again, spirituality is in the toilet. I stopped reading the Bible and commentary every day. I will try to get going on that again. So far, I've got nothing done on moving to Forest Hill. I have spent countless hours watching TV. These shows are consuming me:
- The Diplomat
- Homeland
- Landman
- Yellowstone
- Orphan Black
- Nashville (to a lesser extent)
- Brockmeier (I can't resist anything starring Amanda Peet)
I just started trying to put all my troubles into MS Copilot. It helps me to organize my thoughts. It gave me a suggested path to completing the move. Even coming from a machine, what it said about my overall situation was encouraging.
It's becoming increasingly apparent that my life is in shambles. Nothing is going as well as it should.
- Physically (I'm fat and out of shape & my body is failing)
- Spiritually (don't get me started)
- Financially (struggling to stave off disaster)
- Mentally (just living life is tenuous)
- Secular Career (I'm deeply ashamed of it. I regularly reflect on all the mistakes I've made.)
I need to see a dentist and can't generate the moxie to schedule an appointment. I am ashamed of how I have let myself go. I worry all the time about losing my job. I don't have enough to retire, and the big mortgage I took on to facilitate my move to Forest Hill weighs heavily on my mind.
Politically, the country seems to be spiraling out of control. I never imagined a sitting president could be so openly corrupt without accountability. I'm sure it has always been that way to some extent; now it seems so blatant. I now have an idea of how outright persecution of JWs is coming to the US.
Anyway, I need to do my bible reading now.
